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i talk a lot. i could be branded as a blabber mouth. but there are few moments when im quiet...and i mean real quiet. these moments though rare are moments when i'm closest to myself. these moments are my god conversations.its amazing how many thoughts come into my pea sized brain, but all of these thoughts are responsible for me being me. i don't talk bout these things. not very easily though. these thoughts come up during my god conversation's. sometimes i can come up with the most insane possible explanation for what i did and why i did it. (a lot of this cud be attributed to my loyalty to calvin and his cuddly tiger hobbes). i cud be completely stoic to whats happening around me if everyones panicky, and then i cud scream and bawl if a rat died on the road and say a silent prayer for the rat.i can talk to random people on the road but cannot muster the courage to go for a meeting with the list of people that i'm supposed to meet. well, i think i kno why i don't just get up and go meet them. that's coz, i don't give a lame rhino's ass about it. i don't want to know about the stoopid idea that the client wanted to talk about or the even stoopid explanation that they give you for coming up with it. it doesn't matter to me so i dont bother...hence, dont make me bother. i can't see the sense in doing sumthing witout seeing some sense in it. thats finished.next!im sleepy actually now...i know ill leave it half way through but im sleepy now!...good night!